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wow..its been forever

everything is changed..except the loss of my sanity

im now living in south carolina..yay..not.other than family i dont really know anyone down here yet.im trying my damndest to get a job but no one will hire me    : (

i have yet to find a guy.

my weight is jumping like crazy..i need some help..anyone??

i have been SI free for a long time..but the cravings have been getting more and more intense lately.

im begining to scare myself again...

analove<3

so i have been considering going back to my VERY STRICT diet to get this embarrassing weight off...and i had a small wonton soup tonight.with the soup i got a fortune cookie..it read:

Your present plans are going to succeed.

thats a good enough sign for me.and besides all that i have been getting close with a guy friend of mine that i would really like to be more than a friend.its strange though.everytime i think that he might like me he starts acting all funny.wish me luck.

so everything is getting back to normal.im kinda happy about that but kinda missing all the drama....

so i have been out for 14hours now...

so it has been totally crazy..and i mean totally.i was sent away one day before my 18th birthday.yeah.i was in attendance when a bust happened and was sent up to live with these ppl in colorado.yeah it sucked but it was better then the other option.i had nothing unsupervised and if i fucked up i got sent to girls school.yeah it sucked major fucking monkey ass...

so how have all you girls been??i missed being on here.i was able to get on my other site but this one is much to personal.so update me on everything

      bunches of >analove< 

ps..on the plus side i was able to keep my diet a little bit but couldnt check the scales at all(no scale there).so i weighed myself when i got home and i have some work to do...but not too much.

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        so things keep passing by me as i stand still.

                                         this helps me catch myself before i fall too hard.

so everyone seems to be taking a total shit on my life right now.yeah it pretty much sucks so much

i just want to pack my bags and not look back.....